I have been confused on a few occasions, hahaha that was a joke. I always default to one issue regardless of what my thoughts may be doing to avoid thinking about it. It is like the line in a movie I saw last night, "I can avoid it yes, but not forever." And I have absolutely no trouble with saying that I know that we are eternal and will live forever so it is better to solve any issues now, unless we know a way to put off sort of like "Unlimited data plans" for cellular phones. or the idea that Nick presented to me when we met. "You can loose a battle but win the war." the war is like eternal living and each battle is fought and avoided for now. now? Sorry to get all philosophical it is taking away from my point, huh?
The solution to having an "End game" funny how my mind made that connection and picked those words, but really the idea kame from a song from "chess" titled "Someone Else's Story". I realized that if you came to me with a trouble similar to mine my choice would not require any consideration. I would instantly tell you the thing I always told you, "there is a single most important thing." That thing supersedes all others in it's necessity. I would not want you to play mind games until you pleased me by thinking as I did, because I was your mother, I would want you to do as you feel inclined, as others, not even me, could ever tell you or motivate you sufficiently.
I flip flop daily and struggle with my head and heart hoping to reach a consensus or peace but my mind ultimately must concede and realize that I can be manipulated into believing anything is right through enough persuasion. The same might be said for the things we see, and claim to factually know, then. Those are not the best determining methods.
I want you to love and know what it is. I love this scene.
You deserve to understand the world as it is and too many things require a solidarity as found only in such bedrock. Through it you will be able to understand all of the great truth of the universe. And, so I do not give you this lecture now, but leave it here for you to find when needed.
