Well, you may have been made aware of a label of Classified, but this post is marked as clarified.
It might seem heartless, unmotherly, and incongruous with my previous assertions to have let my children leave without doing something more! And honestly, I agree it might appear that way, but my action is actually the product of months of careful pondering, and ultimately, I had to do something I did not agree with, but I heard a little story that put it well, and I wanted to do the same, so if my children ever wondered or found themselves in a similar situation they might have an example to look to.
When we truly begin to develop our own faith. We find a huge change or perception in the value of a thing. I want ultimately what is best for my children, and so I need to focus on what God asks not what the world teaches is the correct thing to do.
There is a beautiful scripture found in Joshua where he speaks these words:
15 And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.
I grew up singing that a song with such lyrics "Choose you this day whom ye will serve, but as for me and my house, we will serve the lord." by Janice Kapp-Perry. It was the song associated with Choice and accountability.
Choosing the Lord seems easy enough on paper, but it is not, or is it? If we chose the Lord that means that we believe him and that if we really believe that he has the power to do what he claims, which I personally, have no reason to suspect otherwise, then we must believe that if we are obedient that it will be the wisest and best possible out come for our children.
I struggle with this because I do not see even possibly how allowing my family to be raised without me is better than being with me, but it is really a matter of faith to obey even if we cannot make sense of things. A lady in a book said that she struggled with low energy and needed to rely on the Lord for help. but by doing such she was prompted it was not what she would have considered the best use of her limited amount of energy. In fact, she was dismissing chores that seemed so important and her house appeared in disarray, and she was instead doing things that she really would have rather not done, but she said that she Always had the energy that she needed to do the things that she felt prompted to do.
So, those who might be unfamiliar or fuzzy on the notion of being "prompted" to do a thing. Just think of Prayer, you understand that concept right? Well, there is no person present like you mother or other person that you communicate with face to face, but you still freely speak to the air fully believing that you are heard. It is the same with learning to recognize answers, usually no one speaks to you and tells you exactly what to do, thought at times I would rather have drill Sergent say, "Do this!" because, it is easy to do something when another tells you because they become responsible. So, not only must I believe that it is better for my children, but I must believe that I even was told that. It requires a lot of faith.
