Mary's Challenge

1) Becky Pierski - through her I realize that what I value most is not appearance at all because I love her so much, but if I were to get critical of her body, I would realize that she was a mess. Still, I admire her so much and want to be like her.

2) Sister Lynne Murphy is living the dream, to me she is teaching music and the gospel truths to children. I can imagine nothing greater! But, she hobles everywhere and loves her family dearly and talks about how much she loves them, but her husband has passed away. She finds greater purpose than i. The things we value typically.

My last person today is a girl I thought was like the most beautiful when I was 20 she was 17. Well, she was very heavy now, but it seemed as if she was unaware of it or that  it simply did not matter much. My daughter jokingly said, "man, that lady said, "I am so thankful" like 1,000 times." Not, "man that lady must've gained alot of weight and that's why her husband divorced her." Probably her weight never even crossed Mary's mind.

 It really would behoove me to think on it (weight) less as well. Much else matters more.

I just watched a video where a wo.an e plained how she was i  danger of being overweight according to the current BMI chart, but she was actually merely healthy. This video was regarding ideal body weight and it's determination and significance. I ought to post it here:

https://youtu.be/7oZ5vEdlXDk?is=E_9hnnr3xYyWYMrN

Mary's challenge

1) some girl I saw at a camp when I was 12 and wanted to be like her, I have no idea what she looked like and that frankly didn't matter to me at the time.

2)my Mom - she has always amazed me at how perfectly she does everything. I had to conclude early on in life that I would never ever ever measure up so trying to would likely make me co standby dissatisfied.  I do recall a mother's day when all my classmates were arguing about their mom being the prettiest and I thought, hmm, my mom isn't even slightly pretty. I still don't think that she is pretty, but I do think she is one of the most incredible women o. The face of the Earth, and I know 100 percent that my dad thinks that she is extremely pretty. Come to think of it, I have never asked Nick if he thought I was pretty. But, a bishop once had an interview with the two of us and he kept saying, just look at her, she is so beautiful, don't you see it? And he would not even look at me.... so, I guess in the bigger picture, being pretty doesn't make that bogus of a difference if it even makes a difference at all.

3)I am struggling to find someone, I remember seeing Lisa Wrigley in the temple last year and thi n king that she was the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. And I do not even remember what it was about her, I only remembered her husband bearing his testimony about her one Sunday and that as they were doing sealings in the temple he looked at her and could not believed how beautiful of a woman she was and he barely believed his fortune of being sealed to her, and I remembered that and had to look at her instantly to see. I remember at lunch somewhere, I was talking about it with a group of woman, and they all remembered it to and Lisa told how much it embarrassed her. So, when I saw her working in the temple last December maybe I remembered that subconsciously, cause she was surely the most beautiful woman I have ever seen with her white hair and white clothes, I mean wow! I don't think that was any worldly standard of beauty either. It stems from her being g such a good and loving person. 

Mary's challenge

Through doing this challenge of finding traits and people I admire, I am happier and .aking better choices and realizing that I have much less pressure to have things, which decreases my need to make money which in a cycle lowers the ammount of time I watch advertisements which are designed to make me believe I need what they are selling.

For basically ever mankind has lived without supplements and vitamins or any tool to manipulate out bodies towards a desired end.

I find that focusing on the end causes me to realize the proper method to reach this end and it is all self-produced, as part of the gift, batteries included!

1) My Heavenly parents

2) Jesus Christ

3) The Holy Spirit

I want to be like them, not some random internet star/influencer.

Mary's challenge

Mary has a great self-concept of herself and so, I have asked her to help me learn the lesson that I have been taught only I have not yet internalized. I want to stop comparing but more than that stop being upset at myself for not being what those around me see as ideal. It is like a swan being a really really ugly stupid duckling. Her challenge was to start small, when attending such a huge monumental task

 So, I am merely going to spend time each day listing at least 3 people or traits that I do admire and want to achieve, and could possibly accomplish. Simple enough. I pretty much realize that I am never going to be content if I weigh less anyway, hopefully, by listing out admirable people/traits I will forget my failures or let them fade into nothing.